Lately, as evidenced by my posts as well, I am sure, by my attitude and behavior, I have found myself in a position of feeling like I just don't have much time for my morning reading and prayers. That is a horrible position because, when it happens, I feel like I am lacking so much. I was at a meeting last night when the leader spoke of what it means to be "in the zone." We've all heard that term -- usually coming from the sports world. However, for me, when I do make the time for reading and prayer, I can start to feel "in the zone" in my life. When I don't do those things, I feel anyplace but "in the zone". Someone else at the meeting spoke of how, spiritually, we should all be at a place where we always feel like we're "in the zone". I sort of wanted to scream "You know, that's a nice idea, but this is real life, man! How can I always keep myself "in the zone" when I have pressures coming from all sides? Pressures to do more and to do it faster. Pressures to keep my family fed, pressures to keep the families of the 45 people who work with me fed. Pressures to often be three or four places at once. Pressures to multi-task four or five things at once. Pressures to have my mind in 20 places at once and be able to easily switch between any of those places at any time! How can I stay "in the zone" spiritually in the midst of all that? I know that it is a nice, clear answer -- Jesus is the calm in the storm. Reside in Him at all times despite what else is going on around me. But yet, again, this is real life -- my mind is constantly pulled in countless directions. I get really tired somedays of being "the leader" -- the one who is supposed to have all the answers. Of being the one no one else wants to bring up a differing opinion in front of."
Okay, I unloaded a lot of baggage there (you can quit playing your mocking miniature violin now) and, yes, I can see the folly of several of the things I said ... I know many of the answers ... the better ways ... but doing them ... carrying them out consistently in "real world" time ... well, it's tough. That's all I can say.
Now, today, my reading is Jeremiah 22. This chapter has several verses about King Jehoiakim. As yoy may recall, my mother's maiden name was "Yoakam" which, as I understand, is derived pretty directly from "Jehoiakim". Note verse 21 of this chapter. Jehoiakim was not taking the time to listen to God. God was calling out to him but Jehoiakim was too busy.
Yeah, there's a lesson for me there.