Ain't I Samuel 12 just the way life goes? We want God, we seek God, we find God. But then we start to want more than God and, in that search, we distance ourselves from Him.

You know those times that inevitably come around when you just feel "distant" from God? Well, maybe you don't but I sure do.

I was just thinking this morning as I was praying and, hard as it is to admit, it is never that God has distanced Himself from me. It is always that I have distanced myself from Him through my thoughts, my actions, and/or my lack of spiritual discipline.

I Samuel 12 substantiates this. God is always there yearning for me but yet He allows me free will and, when I do not use that free will to continually deepen my relationship with Him ... well, that is when that old "distant" feeling starts creeping in.

And that is when I experience the pain of continuing to try to do it my way until I realize that all I really need to do is recalibrate my thoughts, actions, and disciplines to focus on Him.