Okay, before all my friends start to organize a program to be at my side 24-7 (I love you all but maybe not that much -- heehee), let me clarify something. I do not say this in an "I am going to jump off of a cliff" sort of way. I am more commenting on just how fleeting our time in this world is and how I long to see God's Kingdom realized.
Of course, I know that in that comment is the "point" of this life -- to play a role in the growing and creation of His Kingdom. And, wow, what an honor that is. God doesn't really need me to build His Kingdom. He doesn't need any of us but yet He gives us exactly that opportunity. Very cool. And scary. And humbling.
In this world as we know it, I think we get fleeting glimpses of what His Kingdom revealed will be like. I think we see glimpses of it when we're serving others, loving others, involved in authentic Christian community, and even when we're being served. Obviously, God has rightfully chosen to leave us with great mystery as to what His Kingdom will look like but don't you think we see glimpses of it in these things?
While I long and ache for His Kingdom, at the same time I do not feel worthy. I still feel dirty. Now I know that redemption and salvation come from faith and His grace but, still, I feel so unworthy. Yet, again, I long to see what will be there for us beyond this world that we know today. This world where we increasingly see people feeling like there is no point in going on. Where we increasingly see people struggle. Where we see injustices that make us shake and shudder. I want to see beyond that.
Well, fact is, in our serving ... in our living out the work that is to be done which will eventually help in bringing His Kingdom to light, there is that hope, there is that ability for us to see beyond the confines of this world. We can see beyond by comforting others and by allowing them to see what God offers us. As we ourselves reach out, we help others to reach new places as well ... we can help them to reach God's Kingdom, allowing it to be realized in the huge and glorious way that He has planned for us.