Wow. I just started my blog a couple of days ago and, looking back, I realize a couple of things. First, I think I could develop an addiction for this. I guess that shouldn't be a surprise. I do enjoy writing (my perfect job would be writing and an occasional speaking gig) and I have always thought of myself as being a processor -- I like to think things through before I commit to anything. Blogging is a way of doing that. I also tend to be a pretty transparent person -- not a lot of problem with revealing myself, my thoughts, my fears, my inadequacies. Now, that leads me to the second realization as I look back on my blog ... I tend to question and beat myself up a lot. That really isn't so much self-flagellation as it is just part of my processing of things. Please don't jump to the conclusion as you read my posts that I have become suicidal. I'm okay. But, I do feel that we all need to continually be in a state of change -- on our faith journeys as they are called -- at least to the point of always listening for that soft still voice, always thinking things through, always seeking to hear and follow God at each moment in our lives. Great "God-opportunities" are missed when we stop thinking, stop wondering, stop questioning our actions, I believe. I do a lot of questioning but it is never in a depressed or regretful way. Instead, it is always in the spirit of questioning myself so that I am always moving forward in a better direction -- hopefully to and for Jesus.